What a pleasant visit!

My visit today that was intended to be short turned out to be a more-than-one-hour conversation.
I went to see the room that is offered to me from the university and met a muslim sister there.
She is from Pakistan and was so nice!

I really enjoyed the conversation. We talked about how muslims are in Pakistan (and of course in Indonesia) and how it is like with being and showing one's identity as a muslim here.

I learned some lessons today.
- Tidak sedikit muslim disini menyembunyikan identitas muslim mereka. Mereka tidak pernah menyatakan bahwa mereka muslim dan berlaku seolah bukan muslim, misalnya minum alkohol, makan babi (dua hal yang mayoritas orang sini tahu tidak akan dilakukan oleh muslim).
- Tidak bersalaman dengan lawan jenis sudah menjadi budaya (bukan hanya perintah agama) di Pakistan. Bersalaman dg lawan jenis merupakan issue besar disana, mungkin lebih besar daripada memakai rok mini di depan umum. Kalo kamu bersalaman dg lawan jenis, kamu akan dibicarakan orang-orang. Di Indonesia kebalikannya, kan? Kita (menurutku) masih ragu dan enggan untuk berkata atau berisyarat bahwa kita tidak mau bersalaman dg lawan jenis dan kita akan dibicarakan orang kalo kita tidak mau bersalaman dg lawan jenis.
- Knowing Qur'an by heart. It's enough with just my telling you that I feel ashamed of myself. Hapalanku yang hilang... Duh.., astaghfirullah..
- In Pakistan, wearing hijab is not a must in ALL areas. I thought it is a must there so I am wrong. I confused Pakistan with Afghanistan.

In summary, her talk has reminded me to keep learning Islam.

She praised me for wearing hijab here but I felt ashamed of myself because even though she does not wear hijab yet (May Allah give her the blessing and strength and courage to be able to wear it soon) I think she is more practicing than I am.
She has re-raised my spirit to learn to be a good practicing muslim.

Alhamdulillah...
for this meeting with a muslim sister.
Alhamdulilllah...
for this reminder for me that to be a good muslim is a constant and conscious effort.
Alhamdulillah...
for burning the flame of the spirit of learning Islam and the spirit of being a good moslem.
Alhamdulillah..
for this simple happiness.

I biked home smiling. :D

Drama seri TV Jepang

Barusan saya nonton bagian terakhir dari episode 1 drama seri Jepang Atashinchi-no-danshi.
Walaupun saya cuma nonton sekeping bagian dari episode pertama, dari deskripsi drama seri tersebut , saya bisa dapat gambaran temanya. Yang menarik buat saya adalah apakah drama seri ini tipikal jepang?
Semua tokoh (sepertinya akan, krn sy belum nonton) digambarkan punya ke"ekstrim"an yg unik dan kemudian akan dibahas satu persatu per episode. Monologue2 dgn kata2 yg, let say "inspirational" akan terlontar, terutama menjelang akhir episode.

Jadi ingat Gokusen, drama seri yg direkomendasikan adik sy, krn temanya ttg guru.
Di Gokusen, tokoh utamanya guru (matematika,lho! :D) yg mengajar di sebuah SMA dg reputasi jelek. Si guru diberikan tugas menjadi wali kelas yg murid2nya masing2 memiliki ke"ekstrim"an yg unik.
Ke"ekstrim"an ini kemudian akan dibahas satu persatu per episode. Monologue2 dgn kata2 yg, let say "inspirational" akan terlontar, terutama menjelang akhir episode.

Lho, saya mengulangi kalimat2 sy sebelumnya ya? :D
Sengaja, karena saya ingin tau, deskripsi sy ttg drama Jepang diatas betul-kah?

What do you think?

P.S.
Saya khatam Gokusen. Kalau dibilang suka, hmm, suka-lah, cuma, seperti komentar saya ke adik saya, things are exaggerated there. Berlebihan. Dibesar-besarkan. Jadi bagi saya tidak membumi. (Dan tidak ada bukti meyakinkan kalo si guru adalah guru matematika. He he he:P)
Pun, Gokusen 2 tidak berhasil menarik minat saya. :D

What makes a good person?

Apa sih kriteria untuk melabeli seseorang "orang yg baik" atau "orang yg buruk/tidak baik"? Apakah kalau tidak pernah menyakiti perasaan orang lain?

Penekanannya disini ada di frase "tidak pernah".
Apakah kalau orang yg setiap salah kemudian menyesal tidak bisa dilabeli dg "a good person"?
Apakah kalau orang yang melontarkan kalimat2 yg ternyata menyakiti orang lain kemudian meminta maaf tidak bisa dilabeli dg "a good person"?

Mungkin "tidak pernah" terlalu ekstrim, karena mungkin ada orang yg kontrol dirinya cukup bagus sehingga tidak penah menyakiti perasaan orang lain. Jadi bagaimana kalau pertanyaannya diganti.
Apakah kalau now and then (kadang-kadang) seseorang melontarkan kalimat yg menyinggung tapi selalu kemudian merasa bersalah dan meminta maaf dilabeli "orang yg tidak baik"? Tidak layak dianggap "orang yang baik"?

If Only

Doing my assignment, I came to reading the historical 'battle' of Newton and Leibniz.

Several thoughts came into my mind.
1. If only Newton did not stupidly refuse to meet Leibniz, what will we learn in our calculus? Newton should meet people from Open Source community. :D He had his reason but well, knowledge should be free (free in terms in Open Source).

2. The England society was kind of cruel to Leibniz by worshipping Newton. Literaly worshipping him, I guess, as of refusing knowledge from outside England. I believe Leibniz was free of plagiarism of Newton's work and I think two great minds working on the same subject can lead to the same discovery. I am particularly sad to know how Leibniz's life ended. Again, how ironic it is compared to Newton's.

3. This thing reminds me of Piaget and Vygotsky. If only they met. Hmm..., it's amazing now that we take internet for granted.

4. Open source against Microsoft? He he... Not exactly relevant. But the thought does cross my mind. :)

Summing up, these all are just some flashing thought of mine.
We can't change history. Even if we can, changing it will not necessarily lead to a better 'now'.
I wonder though....

I have a bird!

One day, I went to Ooster Park with the intention to feed some birds. I brought several slices of bread and when I got there I looked around for some nice spot with some "nice" birds. I didn't want to go to the bird-crowded area. You know what I mean, the one you see when you enter the park from tram 9 stop.

After a while, I decided a location. There was a fat bird near the water so at first I threw away several bits of bread. After some bits of breads I wanted to see if the birds (there were two now since his/her friend came along) would take bits of bread directly from my hand.
The friend (slimmer) was too afraid but the first bird after some hesitation and my encouragement did it.
He/she took the bread directly from my hand! Yay!

To make the story short, today I didn't feel like going home so I bought some chocolate bread and zalm salade and ate it in the Ooster park. My fave chair was taken so I took the nearest one to my fave and started eating.
Huaa!
A bird came to me, the same fat bird was walking towards me! Close to my feet!
After recovering from my happy shock, I took some bits of my bread and fed him/her from my hand.
S/he took it without slightest fear or hesitation.

SO, I declare now that s/he is MY bird.
Ha! :D
I don't have a cat, but I have a bird. I cannot touch it (yet, i hope :D ) but that's fine.

I have a bird. Oh, wow! :)
Have to think of his/her name. Oh, and whether it's a she or a he. :D

My bird! I like the sound. Here's the pic.

P.S. You might say it might not be the same bird. Nooo, I am sure it is. It's unusually fat and I have two other proofs. First, the second visit was in the same place and second, his/her friend (yes, that slimmer friend) also came along after some time and was still too afraid to take bread from my hand. Yup, the same bird indeed.

Spring!!

biked around few days ago..


in the morning, of course...

made some pictures in the Ooster Park..


failed to capture the buds and blooming colourful flowers though .. :(

Cats Care

My tom cat, Tommy, died last year.
I took him to the vet but I wish I had read the article in this link.

http://animals.howstuffworks.com/pets/how-to-treat-a-cat-that-has-an-abscess.htm

I think he survived this abscess but then he got ill again and I wasn't there to take him to the vet.
I was out of town and so..
How I still blame some people and myself for this!

"Cycling Dinner" at Sarphati

We had a "cycling" dinner last night.
No, it has nothing to do with bikes.
The title refers to your having starter, main course, and dessert at different rooms.

I prepared two desserts : klepon (Ha!) and banana pudding. Here's how it went.

It's always nice if people like what you have made and klepon (my second time serving it to non-Indonesians) never fails me. :)
I put too much water in the dough though, so the result was too soft. Fortunately, the weather here (is it?) solved the problem. By the time the klepon has to be served, it has hardened a bit to almost perfect hardness (not too soft, not too hard).

The banana pudding was not bad, but it wasn't really good. I don't really like it. I think the taste depends much on the quality of the thick cream and finding the cream was not too easy. I looked at Albert Heijn and found slagroom without 471 but I decided to see if I could find the cream in a Turkish shop.
I did finally bought the cream in the Turkish shop (more expensive than AH's cream) but I think it didn't taste good. Maybe it's not the thick cream I was supposed to look for. I don't know, I can't understand what's written on it. Maybe I should've used the slagroom from AH, it might make the pudding taste better.
Here's the link to the recipe (in Bahasa Indonesia), if anyone is interested.

http://www.resepnugraha.net/resep/detail/?no=290

This recipe was not my first choice. I am not used to food with creams. I am a humble Indonesian from a simple family. Our cookies don't use thick cream.

I do want to make a fruit pudding but actually I prefer Pumpkin pudding :
http://gudangresepku.blogspot.com/2007/12/puding-labu-parang.html

However, this recipe needs a steamer, which I don't have.

I should've just made it as a usual pudding though. You know, boil it with many other things. :)
The thought crossed my mind but..........

Well, I'll make it for myself. I already have the pumpkin like a week ago. :)

Anyway, upon reflecting (What a word! :D),
why do I bother cooking for such an (sorry) unimportant thing?
Well, meeting your neighbours through a dinner is nice. I like this way of meeting friends.
We can eat (He he) and TALK peacefully and decently.
I don't like parties here (There is a party after the cycling dinner which I didn't attend) because it involves much drinking and just because I'm not into that kind of thing.

One more thing, I just like to try out recipes. Just like Lebaran day, this dinner gives me an occasion and reason to try out recipes.
I'll definitely make a pumpkin pudding. :)

Lend me your wings, Birds. I want to Fly home!

Ah, aku ingin pulang.
Kakakku satu-satunya insyaAllah menikah dalam hitungan jam dan aku tidak bisa datang.

Ah, aku ingin terbang pulang.
Tak bisa mendarat pun tak mengapa, cukup melayang di luar jendela dan memandang.

Ah, aku tak bisa pulang.
Sedihnya tak kepalang tapi do'aku semoga datang.

Sadness Management

Being sad is part of our life as human.
Sometimes we're sad, sometimes we're happy.
I am sad now, and am thinking of some cure.

It could be a talk with a good friend.
It could be strolling in a park.
It could be nibbling a pack of chocolate or whatever one's favorite food.
It could be writing down all your feelings.
It could be smelling fresh fragrant roses.
It could be shedding town some tears for some minutes.
It could be staring at the night sky.
It could be (window-)shopping in shopping streets.
It could be reading the Qur'an.
It could be standing outside and feeling the cold in your face.
It could be stroking your beloved cat while telling him/her your sadness.
It could be doing new (not necessarily crazy) adventurous things.
It could be praying to God.
It could be doing some gardening.

But maybe, maybe this next one will be the most effective cure of all.
It could also be reminding ourselves of life after death.
Sometimes we love this world too much and everything that goes against our wish sadden us.
Sometimes we love this world too much and all we could grieve about is what we fail to have.
Sometimes we love this world too much and forget that we have another world to face after death.

So let's just be sad for a while and then stop.
Especially when what makes us sad only matters while we're living this mortal world.

Now, I want to turn off all lights, open my window wide, lay on my bed, stare at the night sky, and be sad for a while..

Definisi "Macet"

Apa yang harus kita lakukan kalau pikiran "macet"?

"Cari tahu dulu penyebabnya", begitu mungkin kata anda.

Tapi bagaimana kalau saya katakan tidak ada penyebabnya?

Tiba-tiba saja pikiran kita macet. Bekerja sih, tapi tidak mau diperintah oleh pikiran sadar Anda.

"Tidak mungkin dong, macet tanpa alasan", anda mungkin berkata.

Dan saya tidak bisa menjawab, karena sebenarnya saya pun setuju dengan anda.

Pasti ada alasannya, hanya saja saya tidak tahu pasti apa. Atau tahu tapi pura-pura tidak tahu.

Entahlah.

Belajar Mengambil Keputusan

Mengambil keputusan selalu saja merupakan masalah yang tidak ringan bagiku.
Takut salah, ragu-ragu, bolak-balik, plin-plan, sangat tergantung pada pendapat orang lain, sampai akhirnya meminta orang lain untuk mengambilkan keputusan buatku sering kali kualami.
Kadang aku benar-benar benci pada diri sendiri. Sudah setua ini, tapi masih juga belum dewasa.
[Halah, benci pada diri sendiri, my another issue. :) ]

Jadi, aku putuskan untuk ... well..., just do it. Make a decision and then learn to cope with whatever results I will get.

So I did.

I decided to take the 200 euros Dutch-course at INTT-UvA, even though I just heard that there is a free Dutch course provided by a foundation and the municipality.
Even though I will need to use that 200 euros to save for a ticket home.
Aku sudah bolak-balik memikirkan hal ini.
Ada pro dan kontra yang tentu udah masuk pertimbangan. (I won't tell it here)
Apa keputusan ini tepat? I don't know.
I have decided and I'll bear the consequences.
Kalo ternyata tidak tepat, aku putuskan untuk yah... menjadikan kesalahan ini sebagai pembelajaran.

I decided to not take the Applied Statistics course that I'm interested in.
Lagi, aku jungkir balik hanya untuk memutuskan hal ini. (Can you believe it?)
I really want it. I do!
But then I decided I don't need it. So I let it go.
Lagi, ada pro dan kontra yang aku pertimbangkan.
Lagi, apa keputusan ini tepat? I don't know.
Aku masih kecewa akan keputusan ini. (Yes, I am dissappointed, even though it was my decision)
But again, I have decided and I'll bear the consequences. And I'll learn from whatever comes out of this decision.

Hmm, mengambil keputusan selalu saja menjadi masalah yang tidak ringan bagiku.

So I decided to just... do it. Decide things for myself. For my life. Not depend too much on others.

Okay now, to end this not-so-useful-writing, here is a nice quote.

“A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion”

Chinese Proverbs quotes

Kanal Princengracht

Akhirnya, keluar kamar juga hari ini.
Bisa dibilang misi terselesaikan.
Rencananya hari ini mau lihat Magere Brug (Jembatan antik yang masih bisa dibuka), Oudekerk (gereja tertua di Amsterdam), dan Blowergracht (Kanal yg katanya termasuk paling bagus di amsterdam). Ujung2nya malah menyusuri kanal Princen/Princengracht.

Magere Brug? Biasa banget. Jujur, aku malu foto-foto disana. :P Tapi karena hari ini udah bertekad akan bergaya turis, kamera pun beraksi.



Oudekerk? Apa aku salah mengidentifikasi bangunan ya? Soalnya biasa juga. Kalo foto yg kulihat di website, bangunannya bagus. Yang pasti aku udah lewat Oudekerkplein (Old Church Square).

Blowergracht? Well, biasa juga! Ada sih rumah2 disisi kanalnya yg agak unik. Jendela2 dan pintu2nya pake kayu tebal. Tapi secara keseluruhan, it does not live up to my expectation.

Jendela2 kayu di sisi kiri kanal.

Princengracht? Kanal ini termasuk kanal terluar di amsterdam. Amsterdam punya beberapa kanal utama yang mengelilingi centrum-nya. yang terdalam Singel, terus Keizergracht, Herengracht, dan Princengracht.


Apa princengracht indah?
Hmm, kalo sekali lagi aku bilang biasa aja, mungkin Amsterdamers banyak yg nggak suka. :p
It's different, and has its own beauty.
Ada lokasi-lokasi tertentu yang cantik. Ada yang biasa aja.
Kalo aku menyusurinya pake kaki, dan bukan di musim dingin, mungkin bisa lebih menangkap lokasi-lokasi indah di kanal ini.


Bagaimanapun, I like it. Aku ga keberatan, kok, untuk menyusuri kanal ini lagi. Dan masih ada kanal2 lain yang masih mau kutelusuri.

(I really like this spot. My camera might not capture the beauty, though)

Berikut adalah foto2 lain yang kuambil hari ini.

Angsa2 (di Wesperziyde) di perjalanan ke tujuan pertama.

Di perjalanan pulang mereka ngumpul lebih banyak lagi.
Aku berhenti pas di depan mereka dg maksud mau motret lagi.
Tak dinyana, begitu sepedaku berhenti, mereka langsung menyerang!
Saya terpaksa melarikan diri!

Pengen lihat, apa kalo natal, DAM square bisa sepi.
Well, bukan Amsterdam namanya kalo ga penuh turis.

Toko-ku di Princengracht. He he..

My Winter Break Starts Today

Finally, my long awaited holiday starts today.
First impact of it is the changes of this blog. Aha!
I added some gadgets here, including wikipedia and youtube search.
I also added my profile. Ehm.. Ehm..

Talking about holiday, one thing I notice immediately is that my fellow Stuneders start traveling all around Europe. It is too big an opportunity to miss maybe.
And I could only envy them.
This winter break holiday, I will only explore Amsterdam and its free attractions. Ha! :)

Still about holiday, I definitely agree with the idea of traveling around the world as much as you can.
I remember one memorable time during my process coming here.
I came across a national newspaper while waiting in a high local government official's office and found this phrase - a quote from a famous person I don't remember now-
" Dream. Explore. Conquer."
The newspaper that day actually had a traveling around the world-including Europe- feature! It felt like a sign that it was my destiny to come here.

Exaggerating, isn't it?
Nevertheles, "Dream. Explore. Conquer." still sounds as beautiful as it was in my ears.

Project baru, kali ini tentang Lebong!

TLC project kali ini adalah buat surat + proposal ke menteri atau siapapun yg berwenang, untuk mengadakan pilot project apapun di bidang pendidikan.
Untuk project ini, aku akan mengajukan proposal untuk mengadakan program peningkatan keterlibatan orang tua di Lebong dalam pendidikan anak-anaknya.
Ditujukan ke gubernur dan KadinDiknas Lebong.

Di Lebong, keterlibatan orangtua dalam pendidikan/sekolah anak2nya sangatlah minim.
Satu hal yang jelas, budaya keluar rumah selepas Maghrib adalah bukti nyata ketidakpedulian (ketidakpedulian mungkin kata yang terlalu keras) atau ketidaksadaran orangtua di Lebong bahwa para siswa perlu belajar di rumah. Bahwa mereka membiarkan/mengijinkan anak2 mereka keluar rumah selepas maghrib, berkeliaran di pinggir jalan untuk mengobrol, berpacaran, adalah bukti bahwa mereka tidak sadar bahwa anak2 mereka seharusnya membaca atau mengerjakan PR/Tugas di rumah. Satu bukti yang lain adalah tidak adanya dukungan materil : buku pelajaran, untuk anak2 mereka. Masalah ekonomi bisa dimaklumi, tapi ini juga dilakukan oleh para wali murid yang berada. Buku pelajaran bukanlah hal yang penting bagi mayoritas orangtua di Lebong.

Berikutnya, mayoritas wali murid di Lebong tidak berpendidikan tinggi. Kemungkinan besar mereka tidak mengerti bagaimana cara membantu anaknya agar berhasil dalam pendidikannya. Kemungkinan besar juga mereka tidak mengerti manfaat pendidikan untuk masa depan anaknya. Plus, kebiasaan keluyuran di pinggir jalan di malam hari adalah budaya, yang juga dulu dilakukan para wali murid tersebut.

Jadi, di project ini aku rencananya mengajukan proposal untuk mengadakan satu pilot project di suatu sekolah di satu area di lebong (Tl. Leak, Ujung Tanjung, atau Tes) selama satu semester.
Para wali murid akan diwajibkan berkumpul di sekolah sebulan sekali selama satu semester.
Mereka diwajibkan mengikuti program yang tujuannya meningkatkan partisipasi/keterlibatan orangtua dalam pendidikan anak2 mereka.

Apa isi programnya? I'm working on it. Sebenernya seharusnya draft proposalnya harus udah selesai selasa kemarin. Molor nih...

Anyway, ini ancangancangnya :
1. Para wali murid masuk ke kelas selama satu pelajaran bersama anaknya.
Tujuan : Dalam tiap pelajaran, guru biasanya memberikan tugas atau PR kepada para siswa.
Jika orangtua ikut masuk ke kelas, diharapkan mereka bisa mengerti bahwa siswa
perlu belajar di rumah.
Setelah mengikuti satu pelajaran, para orang tua dikumpulkan, lalu diajak membahas ide/tujuan tersebut diatas. Mereka diajak berembug, bantuan macam apa yang bisa mereka berikan di rumah untuk membantu anaknya (Kalo tingkat SMA, mungkin mereka tidak bisa membantu membuat PR. Disini akan dibahas bantuan macam apa yang bisa mereka berikan).

2. Workshop : Apa yang bisa dilakukan orangtua untuk membantu anak-anak mereka yang berusia 6 tahun (kelas 1 SD). Bagaimana membantu proses belajar membaca dan menulis di rumah. Kebanyakan orangtua tidak sadar bahwa mereka seharusnya membantu anaknya di rumah, bukan sekedar menitipkan anaknya ke sekolah.
Sebenarnya klao mau lebih fokus ke pendidikan SD, ini bisa jadi satu project lagi.

3. Menonton Video : Manfaat Pendidikan untuk masa depan.

4. Penyuluhan mengenai berbagai macam karir yang bisa ditempuh dan pendidikan yg diperlukan untuk mencapainya.

Aku butuh minimal 3 kegiatan lagi... Hmmm, apa ya...?

Ada ide....

Tell me.....

Statistics dan English

Kok di kelas statistik, bahasa Inggrisku hancur lebur ya?
Bingung.
Memang kemampuan speaking-ku jauh dari sempurna, tapi di kelas statistik, bahasa ingrisku bener2 ancur.

Bikin ga pede aja ngomong dalam English.

Visual Learners Vs Untidyness

I've been reading this stuff on learning styles when I came across this question :

"Are you distracted by untidiness or movement?"


Funny, I'm mostly a visual learner, however, untidiness never really distracts me...

I don't mind many things are scattered on my desk.

I wonder how this question regarding tidyness came up on the author's/researcher's mind.

I like Amsterdam ?

Gak tau apa karena lagi simply happy or whatever, aku sekarang sampai ke titik dimana aku tdk lagi banyak mengeluh atau memprotes dinginnya cuaca di sini.

Bayangkan, hari Minggu kemaren, suhu mungkin 7 derajat atau kurang, aku bersepeda menyusuri sungai Amstel 3 jam!
Can you believe it?
Aku, yang selalu bilang ke temen2 disini, "I'm so slow. I should go now unless I'm gonna be late.", yang selalu mengeluh Belanda terlalu dingin, bisa tahan bersepeda 3 jam di cuaca yg dingin bgt....

Sejak senin lalu, Amsterdam mulai berkabut.
Dan kemaren parah banget. Seharian berkabut.
Dan aku masih kuat make sepeda (dgn kecepatan yg masih slow, lagi).

Wow,so, Amsterdam is not too bad anymore, huh? ... (Bisa dilihat di shot-out friendster ^_^)

I can say I'm starting to like it.

he he, atau mungkin komentar barusan kepagian, karena musim dingin yg resmi dimulai bentar lagi bisa memutar balikkan komentar barusan. Ha!

Caffeine & Bladder

Yesterday, I drank one cup of coffie met melk and 2 cups of cappuccino at AMSTEL institute around 11 a.m. before my multimedia class.
It really wasn't coffie, since it contained milk and I put 2 packs of sugar and one pack of cream in each cups. It's more like eating sugar. (which is as bad :p)
Anyway, the result was I had to go to the toilet 3 times during 1 and 3/4 hours multimedia class and of course, sleepiness just refused to come last night.
Though it was kind of good 'coz I haven't finished my homework that is due today, still, being awake until 2 a.m. is not good for your health.

I finally managed to force myself to sleep after lying on my bed for I-don't-know-how-many minutes.

Summary:
- Just stuck to chocolate milk.
- Drink lots of coffie if you haven't finished your tomorow-due homework.
- Don't drink coffie if drinking coffie is not your habit.
- Here's a link to wikipedia for bad effects of caffeine in coffie.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Caffeine

QUESTIONS

How would you feel if you keep repeating the same mistakes?
How would you deal with your bad habits?
How would you kill the feeling of being stupid for making another mistake?

Everyday we make decisions and choose our actions and react to circumstances.
What if you do it wrongly?

Will you punish yourselves?
Or simply forgive?